Saturday, August 25

The Memory A Nightmare, Chapter One

The upturned nose came bobbing through a field of daisies created a long time before the girl.

The second thing I remembered was the bird.  An owl, possibly, something squat, slightly predatory, definitely out of place, as was the girl.

I finished my espresso and grimaced as it went down, keeping my gaze on the girl. And the bird.

The only other recurring memory I have from that time is that of water dripping.  Amazing acoustics, really, for such an annoying sound.  The tempo kept me alive now that I think about it.

Monday, August 13

52 Weeks: FASTer Way to Fat Loss with Patti Holsenback

This is a photo of my macros on My Fitness Pal app and you can see this was a "Low Carb Day."  I'm a meat-eater so I kind of like Low Carb Day.

In my 52 Weeks to better living, I've engaged in a 6 week program with FASTer Way to Fat Loss and Patti Holsenback.

This requires some time -- meal planning and prep -- but seems like a pretty healthy way to eat.  Intermittent Fasting.  I'm learning as I go, but Patti is a GREAT teacher, coach and champion.

Give it a shot!

Patti Holsenback is a pre- and post- natal fitness coach and runs a Strong Core, Strong Mom workshop that is amazing.  She also leads the FASTer Way to Fat Loss, too, and maybe a few other things.  She's also passed the SC Bar and is a lawyer, but she's a stay at home mom currently.

Thursday, August 9

Short Story Dispensers Columbia SC

Columbia, SC - With the push of a button, Richland Library is bringing one, threeand five-minute doses of literary joy to local readers.
Three Short Story Dispensers are now on display at our Main location (1431 Assembly Street), and eventually, these dispensers are making their way to other library locations and designated community spots around Richland County.
How does it work? The dispensers distribute a randomly printed story from a
catalog of thousands, covering a range of genres. Then, people can save their
short stories, share them with family and friends or leave them in places for others to find. Also, keep the stories going by sharing photos, using SetStoriesFree.
Richland Library is one of four libraries to receive Short Story Dispensers
as part of Public Library Association's (PLA) Fostering Creative Community Connections project. The other three libraries are:

Akron - Summit County (OH) Public Library

Free Library of Philadelphia (PA)

Wichita (KS) Public Library
Currently, there are 150 Short Story Dispensers installed or about to be installed with a goal to promote reading, community engagement, library programs and services, and creative expression from diverse writers.
Stay tuned, Richland Library plans to release details in fall 2018 on how local writers can contribute to future content in the Short Story Dispensers. For questions, please contact Emily Stoll at 803-587-3637 or email
About Richland Library
Richland Library is a vibrant, contemporary organization that provides resources
and information that advance the Midlands. Offering state-of-the-art technology, a variety of literary and cultural programs and 11 bustling facilities located throughout the county, Richland Library offers a truly customizable, modern library experience for residents and visitors alike.

Monday, August 6

52 Weeks: Essential Oils

I've added essential oils to my life and I've really been enjoying them.  I can't say that they actually help with my health though, I can't tell.  But I love using them - they smell good and seem to be beneficial to health just because of what they are.

I purchased a box of roller ball bottles with labels from Amazon.  I purchased this oil diffuser.  This is my second one.  My first had a wood look and was beautiful, but it started making a noise when it was running and I had to get another diffuser.  By that time, the wood looking one had gone way up in price and I couldn't afford it.  So I got this one, which is OK.

After googling essential oil recipes, I've mixed some up and am using my roller ball to apply.  I have one mix for headaches, one for energy, one for immunity aid and one for allergies and colds.  I'll make more soon.

I get my oils from Plant Therapy and once in awhile from Young Living.  The quality of your oils really matters and differs between companies.

Monday, July 30

52 Weeks: Exercise Bands

So I picked up these exercise bands from Amazon. I thought they were a LOT bigger, but they are small.  I'm using them with my arm and leg exercises to provide a little resistance.

Y'know.... 52 weeks to being a better person.  Week #31 and all that.

Tuesday, July 24

52 Weeks: Spinal Health, Capital City Chiropractic

(Pictured: a device that loosens my spine as I use it each morning)

As we approach the Fall, I want to update my 52 Weeks series a little bit.  Upon the new year, I resolved to try each week to add something beneficial to my life. To get healthier and/or happier. Healing and wholeness, spiritually and physically.

I've been doing it faithfully, I just haven't been blogging about it.

But I'll tell you what -- it's made me become way too busy. There's way too many things I have to do each day now, so some of them I've cut down to just do a few times a week.  Either way, I'm way too busy and one of these weeks, my healthy thing to do will be to drop something, lol.

In this post, I want to say that I've gone to Capital City Chiropractic Maximum Living and they assessed my spine.  I'm receiving a 4 - 5 month regimen to regain my spinal health and improve my posture.

 (Pictured: I wiggle and exercise on this thing to loosen my spine each morning.)

This chiropractor, Dr. Tim Losby swears I'll be able to go off all my meds when he's through with me.  I have doubts....

I have blood cancer and I am on chemo.  I can't imagine my spine will fix blood cancer, but we'll see.

I certainly believe in the 5 Essentials that they preach:
  1. Minimize Toxins.
  2. Maximized Mind.
  3. Maximized Oxygen and Lean Muscle.
  4. Maximized Nerve Supply.
  5. Maximized Quality Nutrition.

And the 3 Tenements stressed by Maximum Living:


Also, Dr. Losby says, "


 Amen, brother!  Let's do this.

Tuesday, June 5

Endangered Species: surviving the attack on America's middle class, by Steve Maslar

"If history repeats itself, we are on the verge of tremendous opportunity, as people awaken to reality, becoming increasingly resolute and informed.  In other words America's, and consequently, the world's plight is serious indeed, but it need not be ruinous if we focus on the real problems.

We will endure hardship, the magnitude of which few Americans alive today have ever seen, in the near future based on actions in the past. 

We cannot avoid significant pain at this point. However, we can take the system down together, safely and intelligently, and rebuild it to something better than ever before. Alternatively, we can deny reality or muddle in despair until the psychotic ruling class destructively run the world's greatest culture into the ground and take everybody else with them."

 - From Endangered Species: surviving the attack on America's middle class, by Steve Maslar.

We are currently looking for a publisher, editor, or literary agent. 

Contact me for more information or for a copy to read. This book is not just the author's opinion, it is full of documentation and facts.

Sunday, May 27

Teach Kids About Unanswered Prayer

Benji is 5 1/2.  He celebrates two birthdays annually, one for the whole number and one for the half fraction. When he figures out there are multiple fractions, we will be in trouble.

I'm concerned for Benji because he has a lot of worries going on and he's too private or shy to address them. So they simmer. Then they blow. But there is a type that doesn't blow, it simmers and comes to a rolling boil of anxiety we know nothing about. Or so I suspect.

In the past, he has learned that a genuine promise from an adult he trusts still might not come true. I can see him mentally walking a tightrope determining if what I say could possibly fail. And I just want to hug him.

His other grandma, "Gammy" and I were going on a cruise together just over a year ago and Benji was disturbed that Gammy was going to fall overboard, never to return.  We insisted that would not happen, we promised she would return. She didn't fall overboard, but she didn't return, either, due to a fatal car crash. I look back and wonder why he knew she wasn't returning, he was very adamant about her falling overboard. Maybe because she limped. That makes sense. But there's a part of me that thinks he has some spiritual insight and that would explain the extreme worry.

So he's turned 5 1/2 and he has discovered another BIG worry in life.  Not only do adults make promises that can remain unfulfilled, but God Himself can be shaky.  He can decide NOT to give you what you pray for.

Kids assume if you teach them to pray, that God will answer their requests exactly as requested. Isn't it odd that I never thought about this.

He and I prayed the other day and subsequently I mentioned how much fun it will be IF God gives us what we asked for - I think it was that his daddy would come home early. Benji was stunned. He narrowed his eyes at me and said, "But we prayed for it, so God will do it."  Then I saw every failed tenet on playback in his brain.

Now I was the surprised one.  Really?  We never taught him about unanswered prayer?

We then discussed it. Benji was concerned at first, then he saw some benefit of a God who can see the future and not give us what we ask for.

I'm over-thinking our encounter. I fear I have burdened him even more. Look at me -- worrying about his worrying. Join me?

Saturday, April 21

52 Weeks: learn something new every week

I learned a couple of important things today.

1.  I think I've hit the final stage of grief - Acceptance.
     In a 5-year period:
  • I was a stay-at-home mom and my grown kids moved out
  • I was diagnosed with blood cancer
  • My 30-year marriage dissolved
  • I was in a car wreck in which a friend of mine died from her injuries, she's also my grandkids' other grandma
  • My father was diagnosed with cancer, had a tumor removed and radiation and is still fighting it, now with a chemo protocol.
My life has changed completely, very little of my old life remains visible.  All these losses have left me alone most of the time.  It's been an extraordinary experience.  I'm grateful for all the blessings I have - the kids are married and happy and successful, they live close and I see my grandkids a lot, I remain on the family property and while I struggle to pay bills like everyone else, I'm not devastated financially, my cancer has a fairly long shelf-life... probably, my dad is doing OK and is in his mid-seventies and has my mom there to help him.

Today, when the poet Derek Berry from Charleston wrote me a poem on a 72-degree sunny, beautiful day on the spring grass under a blooming dogwood tree in front of the statehouse Sherman and his troops bombarded, but did not destroy from his position in West Columbia across the frothy Congaree on his March to the Sea...... you get the picture? ... when said poet wrote this and I was able to smile instead of cry:

Well, I figured I finally hit Stage 7 of grief, the final stage.

2. (The Second Thing I Learned Today {in case you forgot where we were with this})  When I go out to photograph the wildlife in my woods, I need to lock Bogie, my cat, in the garage.  While I smiled at his frolicking after birds, I never dreamed he could really catch one.  With my 300 zoom lens to my eye and the staccato sound of the Canon shutter speed in my ear, Bogie caught the brilliantly red cardinal I was photographing, caught two in one bite, in fact.

Yes, I photographed the whole demise.  With a scrunched nose. And audible reprimands to the cat.  It was fascinating, really.  But in the future?  Boag stays in the garage.

What did you learn today?

Wednesday, February 7

CDC Vaccination Schedule is too Aggressive, Needs More Studies

The synergistic effect of the CDC's aggressive vaccine schedule HAS to be studied for safety. It's catastrophically unchecked & I dare say negligent. Our kids are in peril. #soangry

Before 1991, there were only 29 doses of 3 vaccines. After 1991, there were 46 doses of 16 Vaccines.  My children born before 91 had no issues and my child born after 91 had a mysterious allergy the Dr attributed to dust and eczema.   Since the late eighties, vaccine manufacturers cannot be sued.  But in 2008 the Vaccine injury compensation program was developed.  It has since then paid out 3 billion dollars.  Look up the Hannah Polen case.

Are we really going to wait until the autism rate is one in two?   Or that every single child has a chronic illness by age 3? (Food allergies,  Eczema, seizure disorders, GI issues and learning disabilities)

This is one problem.  The second problem is the escalating rate of cancer among adults.   I believe the studies are being suppressed here as well so that we can continue to have cell phones, WiFi,  dirty electricity, gmos, plastics and a variety of toxins literally everywhere.

I am at a loss on how I can make a difference.

If you would like to learn more, I point you to Miller's Critical Review of Vaccine Studies and The Vaccine Friendly Plan.

Tuesday, January 2

New Year's Resolutions

 We had a lot of fun New Year's Eve and don't we look tough in this picture?

I devoted last year to wellness and trying homeopathic and integrated options.  Some things I have kept in my life on a regular basis (dandelion root tea, gall bladder wrap, essential oils, etc), some things I have discarded (turmeric tea, yoga).   I had every intention of writing more about it for you but I did not feel like blogging.
 This year, I have decided my focus will be relationships.  Won't that be interesting?  Infusing my relationships with intention.
I have added a new and very interesting client and I'm changing my role with another client. One I expect to be fun while the other will be a challenge and, I anticipate, not much enjoyable. It is not the direction I wanted to go with my work and probably will not like it.  But… one should always try.  I might be surprised.

Saturday, September 23

Cell Phones and WiFi Proving to be Dangerous to Health

I've a growing concern about the health damages we incur from increased cell phone and WiFi use, the carcinogenic factors from the RF and EMF radiation.  More and more studies are coming in and proving this to be true.  Environmental Toxins Information

In this past week's Thriving Child Summit, Dr. Libby Darnell, DC gave us some practical tips for reducing our health risks from. EMFs.  I'm going to summarize them below for you.  Following that, you can see a video from 2014 wherein Dr. Devra Davis, author of Disconnected, presented the scientific data supporting this claim about wireless radiation.  Worst Wireless Products

Safety Tips for the Home - find more:  EMF Action Guide.

Baby Monitors.  There isn't a safe one on the market.  If you really must have one, try to have just audio and not visual which has a stronger signal and keep it as far away from your baby as possible.

Computers. Try to have them wired, not WiFi.  If not wired, say on a laptop or chromebook, etc, don't use it when it's plugged in, that makes it worse.  When plugged in, you're using a worse type of current.  Your cell phone is worse when it's plugged in as well.  Using a laptop is safer than using a desktop because desktops have to be plugged in.  Using a laptop with WiFi turned off is even better.  If you have to use a desktop, there are filters you can buy to clean dirty electricity.  Use two filters per desktop.

WiFi.  The ideal situation is to have everything wired and skip the WiFi.  If you must have WiFi, go to Home Depot or Lowe's and get an outlet timer.  Plug your power cord for your WiFi into that timer and set it to be off at night when you're not using it. Give your family a span where it's not transmitting.  Also, have the router as far as away as possible, especially away from your kids.

Cell Phones:  As much as possible, keep your cell phone in airplane mode with the WiFi turned off, especially for your children.  Why do they need a cell phone anyway?  The radiation penetrates their brains much deeper, much worse than adult brains.  If your kids are playing games on the cell phone, you can have it in airplane mode with the WiFi turned off.  Always use head sets, never use Blue Tooth. There are actually warnings deep in your phone's settings about not using your headset.  Laws are being drawn up to ensure cell phones must be sold with headsets.

Keep your cell phones away from your body as much as possible.  Keep it near a window so every time it looks for a signal, it is not pinging your body.  Studies are proving that cell phones stored in a woman's bra have directly led to breast cancer.  Studies are proving that cell phones in men's pockets are leading to infertility.

Teenagers seem to be especially difficult to convince to take this issue seriously.  As a parent, do what it takes to protect their health.  Dr. Libby's advice?  Bribery actually works.  Monitor their phones.  Each time you find it in airplane mode with the WiFi off, you reward them.

If you are pregnant and need to use your cell phone a lot, there is a uterine cover you can purchase

Electric Meters.  Most electric companies now use Smart Meters to monitor your electricity usage.  These smart meters transfer information a set amount of times and each time it is responding, it is dangerous to your health.

Look at your electric meter.  If you have 5 clock looking things, you’re ok, it's still analog.  If there’s a number, digital number, you need to take action.  If you have a digital meter, call the electric company.   Find out how often that signal is transmitted, and is it transmitted through space or through wire?  Then you can purchase a material, similar to tin foil, to put around the meter, wrap it, look for videos on how to do it – don’t want to focus it to your neighbors, either, encase the whole thing.  Some companies come out and do it.  You, legally, aren’t supposed to touch the meter.

Also, you could call and see if you can opt out, swap your digital meter for analog, which might require a small fee.  I recommend paying the fee to have someone come out and read it. 

Where is that meter located?  Do you have a child sleeping next to that wall?  Move them away right now.  Same thing with major electronics.  Fuse boxes and main energy sources, get kids away from them, a WiFi router – get it away from blasting yourself.  Fridges give out a lot of dirty electricity as well.
Light Bulbs.  Light bulbs have become an issue for dirty electricity now as well.  Just use the old fashioned ones, they are a lot safer.  LED Bulbs.
Microwaves.  Just don't use them.  If you must use one, stand as far away from it as possible while it is in action.

Here are some tips for cleaning yourself from your exposure to EMF and RF radiation.  First, test your house and buy filters.  Then, take an Epsom bath daily or several times a week.  Spend a few minutes each day with your bare feet in the dirt.  Spend a few minutes each day simply standing on tin foil.  Yes, this works, all that excess energy flows out into the foil.  Do it at night while brushing your teeth. 

Should you use those expensive grounding mats or grounding sheets?  If you're in the US, England or Australia – don’t do it.  If you do it, you’ll be bringing IN that dirty electricity.  You’re plugging in a very expensive fabric covered tin foil.  You plug it in, then you’re bringing that electricity into it and then you lay on it.  That dirty electricity goes through it.  If you stand on it NOT plugged in, it works.  But it works just like tin foil!  Just buy tin foil.  Check your symptoms of radio wave sickness here.

Once you are protecting your children at home, what should you do about school or the dance studio or wherever they spend a lot of time?  Find out where their WiFi routers are located and make sure your child is not near them.  Then offer to buy filters for the classroom.  Talk to the principal or school superintendent.  Arm yourself with research from Stetzer Electric.  Once they are aware of this, they may offer to test the rooms for dirty electricity and put filters as needed.  Some people get shielding clothing for their children, but this is usually difficult for the children.  France has already outlawed dirty electricity and more places are outlawing WiFi in public schools.

The following research is from 2014.  I'm sure there is updated information elsewhere, but this can get you started.  The labyrinth of YouTube is exhausting to me.  Besides, I need to go get my feet in the dirt right now.  Love you, mean it!